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Now why could vampires do that and change shape if they were powerful enough and werewolves could only change shape? And why did vampires get a choice in their shape-changing, while werewolves were stuck with the lupine thing? Caroline sighed as she painted the last fingernail luscious green. Thinking about her wolf- shape made delicate frissons run up and down her spine. She wasnt ungainly in that form; it was impossible to tell that she was pregnant.

Maybe she would. But, no. Not herethis small room would only frustrate the wolf in her. It wanted to run, to sniff the night air, to hunt and cavort under the starry night. It wanted to leap through an open window and race for the woods nearby, where Caroline had heard from her obstetrician that other creatures like her congregated of an evening. They would appreciate her beauty immediately, she felt sure.

It would be supremely unfair to force such an untamed animal to pace the narrow boundaries of the indoors. Besides, her nail polish needed a clear top coat to make it smooth. A nuisance, but that was the price one paid for iridescent green glitter. It was in memory of his Uncle Joe, who had given him a lot of advicesome of it good, and some pretty darn funny.

It helped him, right now, to stick to his studying, and to put aside regrets about that football scholarship at Kent State. He was here at Dalcrest to get a good education, even if it did sound as if everyone around him and in particular the guy directly above him was having a party. For a moment Matt considered standing on his desk and thumping on the ceiling with his shoe, but he didnt want to be unfriendly. He tried to shut his ears to the racket instead. Unfortunately, the hundred dollar bill and the distraction of the noise made him think about something else, something that he wanted desperately to keep out of his mind.

That same hundred had figured largely in their first date, which had been in early autumn like this. It had become something of a talisman for them. But now Elena was with Stefan. Well, at least she wasnt with Damon. A little more than a month ago, Matt had been very unsure about her intentions. He couldnt help the sharp breath he took, at the very thought of Damon.

Just when you think that a guy is good and dead and ought to stay that way; couldnt happen to a nastier fellow, hes suddenly back alive and more arrogant than ever. But of course Stefan had been devastated by his older brothers death. And sorry, Mutt, a voice in Matts head seemed to say, but Elena was the same way, and Bonnie, too. That was why Damon wasnt still resting in peace.

All right, stop thinking about that, he told himself. No point in getting worked up over a fanged loser like Damon. Elena had made it perfectly clear that it was Stefan she loved, and Stefan was Matts best friend. Matt sighed and re-opened his trigonometry textbook, which had fallen closed. He tried to make sense of the same equation hed been reading over for twenty minutes, but he couldnt shut out the booming around him of bass notes, like drums in his head.

He wondered vaguely when his roommate would show up. The guy was going to be pretty seriously behind in classes if he didnt turn up soon. Matt hoped he wouldnt want to party all night when he did arrive. She was sneaking into Stefans dormitory, Gibson Hall, whereunbelievablygirls were not allowed after P. It was more than twenty minutes after that already, so she couldnt even hope for Plan A, which had been to swim upstream against the flow of other girls coming out and eventually make a sharp right turn at the top of the second staircase landing.

That meant it was time for Plan B, which was to be a boy and simply strut her way in. Elena pulled a dark blue wool cap from the double pocket in the front of her navy hoodie. She coiled her hairit was getting a little too long now, she noticedwrapping it tightly into a bun with one hand while holding the cap in front with the other.

Eventually, somehow, the hair ended up inside the cap, and on the top of her head rather than the back. It wasnt really cold enough to justify the cap; the trees hadnt yet begun to change color. Elena pulled her hood up over her head far enough to put her face in shadow. The hoodie was generous in cut, so as to conceal the curve of her hips. In addition, she was wearing baggy Levis and scuffed gray high-top Nikes. A decent disguise, or so her mirror had indicated. Or course, nothing would have been easier than asking Stefan to come to her room tonight.

He could Influence anyone who saw him to let him by. But where was the thrill in that? Just now Elenas heart was racing, her mind was pounding, and she felt shaky with adrenaline.

This might be a decent disguise, but was it actually going to work? What would happen if she got caught? It would all depend on the nature of the guy who caught her, and Elena had practical reasons to be wary of relying on some strange guys good nature.

Her ruminations made Elena huddle farther back into her hood and concentrate on walking like a short tough guy. A short human tough guy, she amended silently, since both Stefan and Damon walked like jungle cats on the prowl: silent, stealthy and graceful.

Non-vampire guys with attitude were more or less a mixture of swagger and stagger. Elena clenched her fists, set her face in a ferocious scowl, thrust her chin out and. Two freshmen who were arguing about something, doing a very much more realistic job of beetle-browed scowling than she could ever hope to, stopped talking suddenly as she passed. Elena increased her swagger and her pace, hastened up the stairway, but it was no good.

She could feel them following her. If her ears hadnt been so muffled by hair and cap and hood she might have heard them. But it was the feeling of where they were looking that really infuriated her. It was a bit she was trying very hard not to sway, and which seemed to have a mind of its own at the moment. Elena put her hand out to make certain and noted that the balustrade trembled under their heavy steps.

She made it to the first landing and then stopped to confront the pair who had just reached the top of the staircase. One of them examined her lecherously, not at all put off by the shapeless clothing. Hey, babe, wherere you going? You got a special friend to see after curfew? Elena gazed at him coldly. My personal life is none of your business. The lecher didnt look at all put out. Hey, baby cakes, we can make you forget all about your friend, cant we? He elbowed the second guy, who was burly and much more taciturn.

Yeah, Burly said shortly. The lecherous one kept coming toward Elena, smirking all the while. Cmon, babe, lets be friends. Lets be close friends. What do you say to getting closer? Elena shrugged. If you really want it. I do, I do, he said enthusiastically. Now, just come over to my room, okay? Or do you want some help? As he reached out to grab her by the shoulder, Elena grasped the palm of his extended hand with her fingers.

She then twisted his hand inward and back under his armpit. His palm ended up facing outward, and he yelped as the bones of his forearm were rotated against his elbow. Instantly Elena applied pressure, turning the lechers arm in a direction it was never meant to go. He gasped, in too much pain even to yell again.

His eyes bulged at her. Elena knew that with enough pressure she could break the radius and ulna, tearing tendons and muscle. Or she could dislocate the lechers elbow. But Meredith had been very specific about controlling opponents without permanently damaging them, if possible.

Elena settled for sweeping the guys feet from under him while he was off balance and his mind was fixed solely on how his elbow joint was going to snap.

He fell and didnt get up again, but lay cradling his sore arm and whimpering. The taciturn guy was already rushing toward Elena, and he was much taller and heavier than she was.

Perfect, she thought. She dropped easily into a position with her right leg in front of her, slightly bent at the knee and relaxed. As Burly reached her, spreading out both arms to crush her in a bear hug, she gripped the neck of his T-shirt on the right side with her left hand and grabbed his left wrist with her right hand.

The rest happened so fast it was a blur. Elena broke the burly guys balance by pushing him right and to the front. She then moved so that her right foot blocked his right ankle, at the same time bending her left leg slightly. Burly tried to get his balance back by coming forward. Elena used his own energy to trip him over the back of her blocking ankle by straightening her right leg and pulling with her left hand while driving with her right.

He tumbled over just as Meredith had done when she had made Elena practice this move over and over during the last three weeks. He crashed quite heavily into the wall and after that seemed to lose all interest in the proceedings.

Elena was so far into the zone that when a third figure came flying at her very fast, she almost assisted him clean over her shoulder. She managed to stop herself in time, which was good because it was Stefan. He had obviously come to rescue herin fact, hed undoubtedly been tracking her aura all the way from her own room in Soto Hall. Now, however, he seemed to see a glint in her eye as she relaxed back into the depths of her hoodie. Good work, he murmured, managing to look properly awed, and then he clearly took in her disguise, and added, Um.

Is thatthats Elena in there, right? He made a show of peering into her hood, apparently not noticing the fact that he was simultaneously holding her hand and urging her up the next staircase. Of course, he could see in midnight darkness like a cat, and the slight shadow of her hood offered not the slightest protection from his visual acuity. It had better be, Elena mused, since you seem to be taking me to your bedroom. In quite a hurry, I might mention. I hope youre not doing that with random girls in disguiseor with random short boys, either.

Stefan gave her a longsuffering look. Of course not, he breathed. Theyre never random; they all look a lot like you. Elena snorted and murmured in a sing-song voice, I know someone whos not getting anything tonigh-hight. It was a joke; a joke!

Stefan said hastily. After a moments thought, he added, Actually. I got a glimpse of your face when you were taking care of those bad guys. Um, it was just a quick glimpsebut I know you so well. He was clearly trying to cover all his bases. Elena couldnt help it; she smothered a chuckle into her sleeve. So how much of the fight did you see? Stefan gave her a sideways glance.

A fair bit. Well, all of it really. Mostly allbut maybe there was more at the beginning that I wasnt there for. You came to rescue me when I first noticed that they were behind me, Elena translated, resigned. Yes and no. Mostly yes. But you really were magnificent back there.

Merediths a fine teacher. Thats true. Elena cheered up suddenly. You know, she taught me a whole different set of pressure points for. She clicked her teeth together meaningfully. Your kind. Yes, Damons showed me pretty much the entire spectrum. He did? Thats weird; Im surprised he would take the. Elenas voice trailed off. Elena felt anger rushing up inside her like steam. Damon had been beating Stefan up, hunting him, and humiliating him for centuries.

Remind me to remind him of a few pressure points the next time I see him. It doesnt matter now. And hes stopped ever since he, er, came back. If I didnt know better, Id think hes genuinely grateful. He should be; it took enough work, Elena murmured absently. They had reached Stefans floor and stopped on the landing and she noticed they were getting some odd glances.

I think we should stop holding hands now. Stefan took a quick look around, and then shrugged, squeezing their interlaced fingers. Let them think what they want, he said, and for the first time that night she glimpsed his sweet, wickedly handsome smile. Frankly, my dear, I dont give a damn. Elena twisted her wrist, slipping her hand free. Yes, she said in a voice that she knew no one other than her demon lover could hear. But what about guys who really have to sneak around just because this place has such old-fashioned regulations?

They may end up getting in trouble oror even rusticated if we act like were totally flaunting the rules. Rustication meant losing your room and maybe also the right to continue classes.

Of course, having a female in your room after P. Now she suddenly and heartily wished she hadnt done it. Stefan was still reacting to her last statement, wincing.

Of course youre right. Im an idiot. Wrong, Elena barely whispered, Im the idiot. You always champion the underdog. No, its just that I got a little taste of alienation when I was. Elena clicked her teeth again, very gently. It taught me things I needed to learnbut not enough, obviously, she finished under her breath. They drew abreast of the odd-glancers.

Elena set her face in its most pugnacious frown and walked with her most boyish lack of grace. It wasnt going to be enough, she realized with a sinking feeling. The glancers had become starers and Elena was under serious scrutiny.

Hey, one of the starers said. Its not a And he used a term which made Elena want to put pressure just behind his jaw and keep it there until he screamed. Its a girl! Salvatore, another of the starers said mock-reproachfully, having a girl in your room at this hour will get you suspendedunless you share. He leered. Thats right, the final starer said. You have to share her with us. In my roomright here, right now. You got that? No, Stefan replied coolly.

I have a better idea. You three are going to forget that you ever saw me tonightand certainly forget that you saw her. The three freshmen started to laugh at that in the rudest possible manner, when suddenly their expressions turned into blankness. They froze, staring now at the wall. Then, all three of them shut their eyes. Elena watched, furious with herself. Because shed wanted a thrill, Stefan had been forced to work like this. She knew how much effort it cost him. He wasnt a predator like Damon, drinking the blood of young women each day.

He stuck to animal blood, which gave far less Power. That meant that he was using up precious energy right now Influencing these three jerks instead of keeping it for simple living. Well, there was one way to make that up to him, and Elena smiled a little while still berating herself. Stefan did drink the blood of one particular human girl: herself. Usually he only took a ceremonious mouthful so that their souls could merge together and they could talk without words.

But Meredith had taught her how to access a dozen vampire pressure points. One of those might be just the thing to help Elena make up his loss of energy.

Elenas smile deepened as Stefan opened the door to his room. She slipped inside, while the three stooges in the corridor stared with open mouths into the distance. The last she saw, they were starting to drool vacuously. He was breathing quickly, not because he was excited to see heralthough he wasbut in order to oxygenate his blood and raise his level of Power. He and Elena shared a brief, fierce smile and then she walked over to the bed in the stark little room. It was a single bed, but it had been luxuriously fitted out with a heavy velvety spread custom- made for it.

Elena stopped, blinking as she looked at it. Stefan saw that she recognized the painting it was based on, which had been done by George Frederick Watts back in the s.

In a black oval on the dark green background, a girl in a brown dress with long fair hair flowing down her back was pictured. She was surrounded by climbing wild red roses, most of them fully opened, some just in bud. The girl was holding one of the living wild roses to her face, as if breathing in its fragrance. At the bottom a small scroll read Memoriam, Latin for Memory.

Elena swung around. Thats my favorite picture. Its the one from Alkemias shop on Etsy onlinethey make that perfume you like so much, that has Heirloom roses and balm of Gilead in it. And just the faintest touch of smoke, the tiniest scattering of ashes, Stefan said quietly, remembering. Its the scent of love. Of tears, maybe. Balm of Gilead is supposed to soothe away tears. Elena was watching him closely.

Are you. I meanI guess I mean, are you sorry we came to Dalcrest? How can I be sorry about anything when Im with you? Stefan asked. He meant every word. Elena was dressed in a way that only she would dress for a rendezvous, for their first liaison in over two weeks. He couldnt help smiling as he watched her pull off her wool cap and let the brilliance of her hair spill out. She was meant to be a boy, he was guessing. She was wearing clothing that a boy might wear, and he didnt doubt that she thought it was loose enough to cover up her betraying femininity.

The only problem was that somehow the deep blue hoodie and the oversized Levis were working against her. She gave the vague impression of a small, rebellious tomboy whod been ordered to put on a frilly pink dress she disdained for a photo, and had turned up in her older brothers clothes instead.

She was. And she was starting to frown. Elena didnt miss much and her vibrant golden aura was turning icy blue with suspicion. Sorry to ogle you, Stefan said, hiding any shade of a smile.

Elenas lip quirked. Oh, youre ogling me in this, are you? I suppose I really should have bound up my bosomalthough, A: to be honest, Im not exactly sure how you do that; and Two: I dont know any way to bind up my hips without wearing Spanx or something and that I absolutely refuse. I mean, the name itself is degrading. True, Stefan said judiciously.

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Smith—and takes place after the volume Midnight. Like another reviewer, I also would have loved if it had continued directly from the last book, with what actually happened with Damon's return, and I thought there was too much emphasis on Damon's feelings for Bonnie - I definitel I loved it, it was great to read a vamp diaries book really by L.

Like another reviewer, I also would have loved if it had continued directly from the last book, with what actually happened with Damon's return, and I thought there was too much emphasis on Damon's feelings for Bonnie - I definitely prefer it when he has a soft spot for her, but not too much of one.

I like it when his affections are smack bang on Elena. Regardless of this it was still the vampire diaries, it's back and I'm very happy, and I can't wait to read the next one! View 1 comment. Feb 05, Nadya S. When I found out L. J Smith was continuing her Vampire Diaries series I was: Though it's kind of sad that in order to continue, she had to publish it as fanfic but I acknowledge her resolution to continue something, a story nonetheless, that's rightfully her own! What I enjoyed: They're back!!!!

It's a bummer the fact that allof sudden everyone knows Damon's alive and well and being Damon! I imagine something like But oh well Jul 23, Claire marked it as to-read Shelves: paranormal-romance , young-adult , parnormal-or-horror-or-supernatural , fantasy , short-stories.

So sad I won't ever get to read this one. View all 4 comments. Dec 06, Jenna rated it it was ok Shelves: feed-it-to-the-wolves , unfairly-sad , rip-out-the-last-pages , never-bothered-to-read-properly , where-da-love , sooo-predictable , reviewed , i-seem-it-read-my-mind-and-went-the , lyk-really , i-want-to-devour-it-then-vomit-it-o.

Why do people seem so oblivious to the fact that this book sucked? Then I understood. Everybody is thinking "L J Smith was robbed of her book by evil tv series producers! Poor author! Let's read this poor author's book and rejoice! She needs every bit of fan support! But itd doesn't take away from the fact that this book was NOT up to scratch.

Everyone feels so obligated to love this book Why do people seem so oblivious to the fact that this book sucked? Everyone feels so obligated to love this book because it's a author rebelling against the greedy world. I understand the appeal. Hell, I used a couple of tissues when I heard about L. J's stuggle. What they did was cruel. I wrote emails, demanding that my family embark on a search for this book. But after I realised the only solution was an e-transaction, I gave up.

Amazon is just as greedy as the producers. And e commerce is just shifty. Anyway, I was pretty emotional. When I got the book - I managed to scavenge it from the gutters of the Internet about a year later - I was ecstatic.

I had just finished the nth episode of the tv series. I enjoy laughing at the stupidity as well ad scrambling my brain trying to separate different timelines. In fact, I got so confused about what happened where. So I started reading it. And stopped half way. Because it sucked. The book characters are even bigger imbeciles than the tv series characters! Seriously, Stefan? Start erasing everyone's memory because you are a monster who deserves nothing but the worse? I always knew you were brooding, but this?

This is pathetic. I can't believe I have been rooting for you all this time. On top of his lunacy, he integrates his brother into his loved ones' lives. Sure, that , makes perfect sense. Just make your ex-girlfriend and her friends trust you brother, who eats people frequently. Yep, Stefan, always noble and selfless. Elena's hero. Stefan just saved her from loving to a blind idiot.

The whole Damon-is-replacing-Stefan rubbed be in the wrong way. My biggest turn off when it comes to books is this: someone coming along and replacing the main character. I wanted to read this book - the timeline untouched by ghostwriters, by fans, by producers.

I wanted the timeline where Elena and Stefan are together. In the tv series, Elena and Damon were together most of the time.

It's sickening. In the ghostwriters' books, Stefan dies in the 11th book and Damon steps in. Pouncing on your dead brother's girlfriend. Talk about cold. The Evensong series gave me hope.

This flickering warm thing in my chest that maybe Elena and Stefan will work out somewhere. In at least ONE timeline Damn it! I was shipping StefanXElena from the very beginning until the end. And now that their relationship has come to an end in all timelines, I can't bring myself to like Vampire Diaries at all.

I hate the whole thing now. Everybody who touches this book seems to think it's okay to make their characters idiots in order to move their story along. Ever head of actually putting thought into your plotline? Fyi, that rhetorical question was aimed at all creators of the Vampire Diaries. Except the first ghostwriter.

As far as I remember, anyways. Read it two years ago. But since I have watched six seasons of repetitive soapies, read until the 11th book, I can't just let myself hate it. I've dedicated too much of my time and energy into this story.

I have decided to reread the first few books, trying to understand where it all turned to shit. But I couldn't find any. So I am just going to have to forget I have ever read the 11th book or this book. Or I am just going to become more upset than I already am. I half want to know the ending. The part that hopes StefanXElena will come to be. The part that hopes things will get better. But another part is just convinced that the characters' sappy romances will just get more sickening, that characters are just going through this stupid soapy of a book.

Yes, you can interpret that as me saying that the book and tv series are the same. I'm done. Just get this stupid thing over with. Midnight ended with the death of Damon Salvatore and a reset of all the terrible things that had happened in Fell's Church, the home of Elena Gilbert and company.

The main characters, Elena, Stefan, Bonnie, Meredith, and Matt made the decision to attend Dalcrest College, despite scholarships to bigger and better known Evensong: Paradise Lost is the first book in a new Vampire Diaries series by L.

The main characters, Elena, Stefan, Bonnie, Meredith, and Matt made the decision to attend Dalcrest College, despite scholarships to bigger and better known colleges, in order to keep an eye on their beloved town of Fell's Church. As Paradise Lost begins the crew is well into their first semester at Dalcrest and surprise!

Damon is alive and well and his wonderful, Damon-y self. Smith makes an interesting choice as she continues the series, which I found improbable and disappointing.

At the heart of this is Stefan, who is rash in his actions following a moment of passion that ends tragically. I admit Paradise Lost was very easy to read. Happily, the fantasy characteristics we saw in The Return series star balls, dark dimensions, malachs, and kitsune are absent though the pesky ley lines are still around. Oct 15, Kikijanika rated it it was ok. I've read the whole Vampire Diaries series, so when I found out that L.

Smith had written her own version of what happened after she quit officially writing the series, I was quite excited. I didn't like the fact that the author was changed in the first place so it was nice to find out there is this alternative version of the story available and I was happy to dive into the world of Vampire Diaries again.

I know it's only part one but I felt like nothing much happened in it except in the very beginning when Stefan accidentally almost kills Elena by drinking too much of her blood. After that Stefan decides to erase himself from Elena's life in order to keep her safe, so mostly the story concentrates on Stefan erasing peoples' memories of him and everything supernatural.

Meanwhile, Damon is kind of taking Stefan's place as Elena's boyfriend. Only Stefan has erased all memories of vampires from everybody's minds so they think Damon is human and he must act accordingly.

I'm not the biggest fan of Stefan so this story centered too much around him for my taste. He's self-hatred and endless self-blame are driving me mad. I also think that Elena is over appreciated by her friends and the way everybody always puts her above everyone else is annoying. So when the other half of the book is Stefan roaming around hating himself, the other half is about Damon adoring Elena and Elena's friends worrying about her when she's already totally fine. The only part of this story I actually found interesting was the supernatural being that kept taking over Bonnie and making her speak some creepy stuff.

But just when Stefan and Damon are about to start investigating this supernatural being, the book ends. I hope the second part will be more interesting than the first because I've got the idea it's more about Bonnie and the creature that possesses her. I just felt like this part had no actual point. Jan 16, Christine rated it really liked it. Ok First I love the fact that L. This made the female characters feel a little unfamiliar but that fits with the story line.

I enjoyed the way the characters kept trying to remember things and how Caroline was featured. Damon's Ok First I love the fact that L.

Damon's back with his KW smile although I'm not sure what I thought of his character, there's something lacking but cant put my finger on it, I'm tempted to say he was being too nice but I don't mind him being nice. I think there was a little too much hospital and Elena resting that was a little restricting to me.

Overall the books good to read, there's potential with the story line, i want to see where it goes and will buy part 2 Jan 26, Aussie bookworm rated it really liked it Shelves: kindle , vampires , favorite-vampire. I was so upset to find out that L. J Smith was not allowed to finish her vampire diaries series, I have been reading these books since they first came out years ago. Well now it is so hard to separate L. J Smiths writing from the Ghost writer series, plus the T.

Stefen is still his stuffy scaredy cat self, and the gang is still awesome. I love continuing on from the stories, but I wish I had of re-read Midnight to get a perspective on where the story is. I am looking forward to reading the rest of the stories, I think I will get over the Daemon, Bonnie romance if I have to but I am just so excited to be reading the real deal, even if it is "Fake" written by the real author. Anyway definitely buy these and support L.

J Smith so she can continue with TVD the way it was supposed to be. Jan 16, Kushnuma rated it it was amazing Shelves: l-j-smith , 1st-in-unfinished-series , netgalley-approved.